Exhaustified....

I had a great time yesterday hanging out with Kelsey and her family. I must admit I was a little nervous being in a space with so many kids when I hadn't had much sleep the night before. I used to be able to be around all kinds of noise whenever, now I tend to get a little overwhelmed if it gets too noisy or intense. Fortunately K has fantastic littles and B was in pretty good form himself.

We made nummy tacos for dinner and I was so excited. Now we did got a little traditional (aka fat laden) and fry up corn tortillas. I could NOT resist....they were amazing. I had tracked all of my calories for the morning and knew I didn't have a ton left. I made the choice to just enjoy the evening and not freak out over my intake.

Yes I know you are shaking your finger at me saying, "life will always be about choices....it's almost like being an addict--a food addict--you need to choose the right stuff or this journey will be for naught" But well I said screw it bring on the tacos. When I returned home Boston had fallen asleep already so I put him to bed. I pulled up sparkpeople to put in my calories....but I freaked. I didn't want to face the music. So what did I do? I chickened out and went to read instead. Disappointing yes but well, sometimes I just can't handle the truth and I like to be an ostrich and bury my head in the sand instead. Boston woke up 3 hours later and vomited again and had diarrhea . NOT a pleasant greeting when you open the door to his bedroom. So again I got him cleaned up and the nasty linens into the washing machine. He decided that he was awake. I decided that I was exhausted. So from 10 until 2 am Boston was awake and ready to go and I was in and out on the couch. Praise all that is good and holy for Sprout tv. I finally drug the boy to bed at 2 and he finally fell asleep about 45 min later only to awake recharged at 6:30. This momma wanted to cry. Fortunately I come prepared....Coffee and I are like peas and carrots.

After feeding B breakfast and getting my coffee I realized that I simply had to face facts and put in the calories from last night. Much to my surprise I was still within my daily calories. I was not however within my daily fat allowance but I can work on that. It was nice to know that even without completely consciously making my decision about dinner I still subconsciously kept my portions within reason.

Weigh in tomorrow. Fingers crossed.....I really really really need to see that needle drop.