Monday, January 11, 2010

lazy lazy lazy day

I spent so much time this morning trying to avoid polishing off the birthday cake I baked for my son yesterday that I ended up sorely short on calories by 5pm. I have made up the difference but now I feel all bloaty and even more lazy than I have all day.
I'm lacking energy and enthusiasm today. I am most definitely looking forward to working out on lunch again tomorrow :) I need the movement. Boy do I lack the discipline to work out at home. Grrr... I'm in a weird brain place today. I do not like it and I want to enter the happy place I was in a few days ago.
I don't have much for today. I feel blah and a wee bit bummed but for no good reason at all.
Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am very afraid that I am going to see an increase. I don't really know why either. I actually got in some fitness this week, and I ate within my calories every single day...here's praying for a lower number. If I don't see that lower number, please Lord let it spark in me a desire to just work harder next week and not give in to the temptation to just become lazy again.
Actually pictures from Christmas are enough inspiration for me right now. I saw a picture of me in one of my favorite sweaters and it made me want to gag. I had NO idea how I look in the sweater in reality. I sometimes wonder if my brain has set up a safety shield to protect me from the reality that is my figure ;)

1 comment:

  1. i feel my brain does the same; i find myself asking "do i look like that?" when i see someone...big or small or medium...wondering what others see when they look at me...and if its different than what i see in the mirror....sigh. we'll get to the point where those thoughts, nor the reality will matter : ]

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