Pooped

Pooped, but I popped on to say hello. Mostly because I decided to try and write every day of Lent. I haven't exactly succeeded but I am not giving up the dream just yet.

Why is it that in the middle of a day where I am done, that is it, another call and I will explode and then my team members do something hilarious, or goofy and remind me that some of the things we do and get away with at my current job would NEVER happen anywhere else. There are some definite perks to the job...but my goodness I am STRESSED to the max when I talk to idiots, whiners and complainers all day long. I wish my job was more fulfilling. Meh.

I am so excited it is my weekend, I have been missing my son very much. It is hard on days like today when I get to see him for a little over an hour and a half between wake up and bed time. Then during the hour and a half I get I am trying to scarf down dinner because I haven't eaten in 5 or 6 hours and I am exhausted and don't have much energy to really play hard. We read, we talk, we learn things and have just kind of mellow together time. I just hope that the extra full day a week together is beneficial. Being a working mother is so difficult--constantly trying to balance work and home life. Feeling the guilt of wanting to spend any time as just you the woman, and trying to make sure that you are a part of your child's life and that you get to show them quality experiences and share their life while you can.

I can't tell you how tickled it makes me to come home and see his toys and clothes and reminders that he is here with me. I cannot imagine life before or without my son as a part of it. He has truly given a deeper purpose and meaning to my life. I am truly blessed to be a mother. I pray for those who have lost children or who cannot have children. I have several close friends who would dearly love to conceive and I hope for them that they do. Children are of course not for everyone, I understand and respect that. I have just found that my son has added so very much to my own life.