Today has been a day that has run me through a wide range of emotions. I have gone from chipper to frustrated as hell to blessed and full of love. I'd say that's a day well lived. Well experienced.
I am learning that it is okay to want to scream and throw things during the day as long as I don't scream and throw things, and handle it like an adult instead :)
I have been making a point to dress more feminine and to enjoy the womanly figure that I have. Embrace the curves (even if I want some of them to be a little less curvy) I enjoy being able to put on a dress and actually feel COMFORTABLE. I cannot tell you the last time I put on a dress and felt good wearing it. In fact, the last dress I bought before just these past few weeks was over 4 years ago. I just felt fat, and thought my legs looked ugly in a dress. I just felt like it showed all of the worst parts. Boy do I know NOTHING ;) A friend was over the other day and I was showing her a pair of shoes I had purchased. When I lifted the leg of my jeans to show her she says "wait a second, lift up your pants more. Wow....you have GREAT calves Jecca (that's my nickname) you should be showin those babies off all the time"
I have never thought of my gams as great, but now I am trying to take a more positive look at them. Kinda hard not to look smokin in a pair of stilettos :)
I stepped on the scale today for a reality check. I have got to regain my control over emotional eating. The stress ( and chocolate, and pizza, and cake, and lattes, and candy.....) is winning. My waistline and hard work however, are losing and that is not acceptable. Time to start anew.
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