Taxing....

Today was very taxing and it left me questioning a lot of decisions that I need to make for myself. I wish I could say that they were just little meaningless decisions like what to have for dinner, or which shoes to wear tomorrow, but unfortunately, they are the BIG ONES.

I want so badly to enjoy what I do for a job, no to enjoy a career. I hope to find something more fulfilling that will also pay the bills for my son and I. I worry that I won't find this career and that I will spend my work life just getting by and having it slowly eat way at me.

I have days where I can do it and I feel the possibilities of moving forward, and then it just slips away like it was a dream and that the potential wasn't even there.

I hate that it makes me angry and that I let it fester. I'm tired of it. I know that life is life, and that because of my choices that my road isn't the easiest....but does it need to be the hardest? (yes I'm whining a little)