I'm feeling like I had hit that stagnant place again, I wasn't moving forward....or really backward for that matter. I had reached a standstill and my mental gears were grinding. I want to find the courage within myself to move forward, no matter how small the step. I want to inch towards a happier place.
I think that my decision to proactively be more social is a definite step in that direction. I had a fantastic Tuesdate (yes Miss M I stole your term)...and planned another Tuesdate with Jacquie & Emma for next week. I am very excited....this may just become a regular occurrence.
The next step will be filling out a fafsa and trying to map out my course for finishing my final credits and just getting my damn B.S. I am so very close and it will be utterly ridiculous to just let it sit and waste away.
If I want something more, if I want opportunities this is a necessary step. I have found a great strength within myself in the past couple of years, and I know that if I am aware that finishing my degree is a NECESSARY step to my future happiness I can endure a lot to see it through.
One piece at a time.
I also still firmly hold that if I eat pizza I lose weight. (yes this seems counterproductive but I have results to prove it.) I lost 2 lbs this week!! I also remember that just about every single week of weight watchers where I ate either tacos or pizza I also lost weight. I have no science. I just have numbers :)....and that's my story and I'm stickin to it.
I cannot wait to reach the 180's I just want to get to the next set of 10's. I am soooo close. 192 right now ( and yes the number and the idea of the number still pains me but it is less than it was before and headed in the right direction.) Rockin hot mom here I come :)
:] 192...wahooo! yes you are getting there! i missss you and you can steal any term you want!
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