I had a few days of making less then beautiful food choices and yet somehow I managed to maintain my current weeks weight. ( I haven't posted it yet because it isn't my actual weigh in date. So I might as well make sure I truly maintain)
I was in a rough spot feeling very frustrated and defeated. I feel much better today and have decided to try and kick this little funk to the curb.
I am also trying to assert myself more with my ex and tell him (not just infer) that he is being immature and selfish. I need to tell him that I shouldn't have to ask him for something that he is already supposed to be doing. I should not have to be the only responsible parent. I hate that he is one of the very few that I am having a hard time saying look buddy you're pissing me the hell off.
I always worry about rocking the boat or causing him to exact his irritation with me on my son. I don't know that he would, I am just afraid to find out.
But honestly enough is enough. I'm not a door mat and I need to stop bending and placating just to avoid potential conflict.
I want to buy new clothes but I've decided I am not there yet. I haven't dropped enough lbs or inches to warrant needing the next size yet. So, until that happens no new clothes for this girl. Reward system right :)
Here is to a better day and a better week.
i know the battle of food and confrontation are hard...but you are doing wonderful and you are a great mother. :]
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